“It is wrong to ask for love? ” I asked him.
“No its not” he said.
“But i want it so badly. I want with all my heart. No guy likes me that way. All i have had are jerks in my life. I am just fed up but i still want some one, its a depressing yet a unsettling feeling at the same time. I just want to be loved. ” I said with a deep breath in the end.
” I’m sorry i was a jerk too. ” He said.
“No..stop it. You were a little bit….but you also loved me the most among all the guys i dated. You were so different…I actually had a idea of us lasting together. But… ” I said looking down.
“Hmm yea..me too.” He said while holding my hand slightly.
” I’m really sorry. I wish you could get a guy who you deserve and give you the abundant love, you could ever recieve. ” He said with a sad smile.
I leaned my head on his shoulder. It just felt perfect. Like this was all i needed. Like i just wanted this all my life. I closed my eyes. With my head on his shoulders and our hands entwined. We just sat there without saying a word. We just felt the silence. We just felt the sorrow.
” It’s good that we are friends now.” I said with my eyes closed.
“Yea..” he said.
I lifted my head. I had no idea that he was so close to me. He curled my hair strands behind my ear.
“You always had big eyes. Big ones.. Shinny like stars.” He said with a smile and his fingers still on my neck.
I just looked at him and i didn’t know what came upon me and i just leaned closer to him without thinking….and kissed him.
He caught me by the neck and deepened the kiss. We had kissed each other after a very long time.
After 2 years.
It was like it was calling me. It was tempting me to feel his lips. I wanted to know whether do we have the same touch like we had before. That mystery was haunting me in his eyes before i could kiss him.
And i stopped, so did he.
“We weren’t supposed to do that.” I said.
“Yeah…” He said.
” But we did”. He said with a smile.
I pulled myself away from him. But he didn’t let go of my hand nor my waist.
“No.. We can’t do this. We promised each other. ” I said with tears in my eyes.
“I know. But this feels so right. Give me one chance. Please come on. I love you. I always have. And i always will. Pleasee…” he kissed me again. This time tenderly, softly.
“I’m sorry…i dont want to lose you too..all i have is you. I can’t lose you.” I said weeping.
“You won’t…”he said.
“Because i will be there for you even if you are with me or without. I will always be there for you. Please.” He said with tears and pain in his heart.
“Shusshh..stop crying.” I said. “You look ugly ” i said with a giggle.
This time i gave love one more chance.