“Will, You dick!!” I shouted at him when he rushed to my bathroom when I was almost in. He jostled and closed the door on my face. I was banging the door with my fists.
“Oh comon Will!! I have an early meeting today! Get the fuck out! This is not your bathroom.. The other one is.” I sighed.
“Fuck!” I banged the door again! “Wil!!!” He opened the door suddenly.
“Asshole!!” I turned with shock, facepalming myself.
Will was confused. “What!?”
“Look down.” I said annoyed, rolling my eyes
“Oh fuck!” he cursed under his breath realizing he was naked. He bought his towel on his waist. “Done…” He said quickly.
I turned. “Get the fuck out.” I said looking at him getting irritated.
“You always do this! I have a meeting.. You have the other one…” I whinnied pointing towards the door
“But that’s so freaking small.. This is bigger. If you didn’t waste my time. I would have already been done!” He closed the door on my face. I closed my eyes, Oh god. I was counting to 10. 10….9….8…7… He made me crazy.
“10 Minutes Will!!!” I shouted.
It had been 6 years that Will and I were really close friends. We trusted each other. He was my best friend. Yes, My best friend. He knew almost everything about me and he knew me, for REAL. We grew close. I never knew I could have a best friend. He helped me in overcoming my condition. But I was still far to completely over come it.
I could tolerate Will touching me, even though he would ask permission. But no one else. Somethings changed, for example I started accepting, forgiving and the nightmares stopped. I started getting less startled when people accidently touched me. I stopped freaking out for no reason. I was getting calmer and actually normal.
Will, was almost done with his Phd. He would start his education degree and soon would be teaching. As for me, I was working hard and was the youngest female director to lead my department. I was happy, everything was turning back to normal. I wanted my life to be filled with happiness and I think it would happen soon.
Will brought the best and worst in me. He knew what triggers me and what softens me. He also knew that I was strong willed and didn’t take no for answer. So was he. I would always lose to him because of the obvious reasons. I needed him more than he did.
We were supposed to meet in a club at 10 PM, he was supposed to introduce me to some of his close friends. After being continuously nagged by him and whining by him, I gave in. I was an introvert. But he wanted me to meet them. So I just agreed.
I was almost done with my reports when I saw my phone ring – It was Will.
“Where are you ?” He said calmly
“Just leaving…” I said as I packed my bags and rushed out. Dix left, I told her so. Her children maybe waiting for her. No one was in office but just me. I sighed..
“I know, I am late. But give me 15 mins.. I will be there. I am just getting out.” I said hurriedly while pressing the elevator button.
“Okay, I’ll be on.. Let me know when you reach the car.” He said calmly
“No.. It is fine.” I said relaxing
There was silence.. on the other side. I guessed it. “Okay fine..” I said rolling my eyes. Will really cared for me after I told him about my past. He wouldn’t back down if I wanted him too. It was annoying sometimes, but sometimes I was thankful that someone was there to see me if I was safe. It meant a lot to me.
“Someone there ?” He asked munching something
“Nope..No one. Everyone had weekend plans, I guess” I said while removing the car keys from my handbag.
“Are you in the club ? I can’t hear any music..” I said walking towards the parking lot.
“I am, Just came out through the back door.” He said while eating something
“Okay.. I’m in the car. I will see you there. Bye.” I said while I heard him saying bye. I hanged up and started my car.
Will was like this, Always. Considerate. He worried for me in ways that I didn’t feel. I felt special. He cared for me. No one cared for me in a long time. Except for Dix, she would be worried if I had eaten or If I am working late. She was a mom, she had a comfort vibe. Maybe that’s the reason I never let her go. I gave her a higher salary, holidays, free trips. She never asked me but I wanted her to stay with me. She would always know things way before I could even enter the building. She had my work sorted. She was my right hand, No one could take her place. She was the only one who I could talk too sometimes. But now there was Will.
He was balance in my life, he knew my mind and my actions. He was decent guy with higher morals. One thing I admired about him was he never stood down from his responsibilities or his promise. He always took a stand. Never backed down, however the difficult the situation was. He would never be panicked and solve it calmly. I never saw him get actually angry for 6 years.. which was surprising.
I entered the club, with my formal clothes. I removed my blazer and looked around. I found Will’s hand raised, calling me. I saw he was sitting with few friends. Oh god here we go… I took a deep breath and walked towards them. I was wearing a white shirt with blue trousers. I Pulled my sleeves to my elbows and opened my top button to breath more calmly. I smiled at Will.
“Sorry..” I mumbled to him, he stood up and took my hand. My palms were sweaty, I was nervous. I sat next to him, he felt my hand and looked at me. He leaned closer.
“It is fine.. Calm down.” He said calmly. I nodded with a small smile.
There were 5 pairs of eyes looking at me, smiling wide. “Guys, This is Kelly. Kelly these are my buds.. That’s Sam, Ken, Alex, Bella, Nikki.” I smiled at all of them.
I tried to remove my hand from Will’s hold but he held it tighter on his thigh and I looked at him and gave up. I had to admit it felt good. Less nervous.
They all started raining questions on me, while I was chuckling and answering their questions. It wasn’t as painful as I thought. they were common people, who loved each other’s company. I laughed at how they spilled beans of Will at their college times.
“Back then Nikki and Will were quite an item..” Said Alex while gulping his drink. I raised my eyes. Okay, that was a new information. I looked at Nikki, she was flushed. I looked at Will, he saw me apologetically. He leaned in closer to my ears.. “I was gonna tell that after they left..”
“It is fine..” I said placing my other hand on our hands placing on his thighs. He looked down surprised, I never initiated the touch, he smiled.
Sam looked at us. “So… Why do I think you guys are dating…” He sipped his drink.
“Well… We aren’t.. We are just good friends..” I said while chuckling at him
“Will, doesn’t take care of his friends like he does to you..” Bella eyed me narrowly
I laughed.. I looked at him.. “maybe then I am lucky.” I said looking at Bella.
“Maybe.” He said smiling at me. He bought his arm around the couch behind me. I leaned behind resting my head on his arm. He looked at me, surprised.
“Damn, What is with you ?” He whispered. He was surprised by my initiation from time to time.
“I am just tired..” I smiled at him. He nodded. His friends started talking among themselves as usual and Will was conversing with them from time to time. I on the other hand was looking at the dance floor and looking at a couple who were dancing sensually. The girl was moving her hands around the guy’s shoulders. The guy was holding her waist, swaying in motion. They looked intimate. I wanted that but could I ever have that ? I wanted someone to touch me like that, but I wasn’t able too. I sighed, sipping my drink, looking at them.
“Tough day?” Will asked me, eyeing me carefully
“Busy..but not tough..” I said while looking at the couple.
He followed my graze. “All you have to do, is ask…” He whispered.
“Huh ?” I came out of my thoughts. “What do you mean ?” I asked him.
He looked at me for awhile, then looked away. I guess he didn’t wanna repeat again. While I sipped my drink, “I am scared.. If I do ask, It might come true.” I whispered under by breath.
Will was looking at his friends and laughing. I kept to myself mostly and listened to them and relaxed. I saw Nikki looking at Will, time to time. Maybe she misses her old love. She looked at Will with a different vibe and it was making me uneasy.
After countless drinks and hours later, we soon exited the bar and Alex, Sam Bella walked out saying their goodbyes. It was without question that Will and I would be going to my home. As most of the times, So I didn’t bother asking.. I removed my car keys from my handbag and looked at Bella. She was sloshed. She could barely stand. She hung herself on Ken.
“See you guys.. I’ll take her home…” Ken said while holding her and trying to stop a taxi.
“Hey Ken.. Maybe I should come with you..” Will said in concerned voice. My eyes widen and I turned looking at Will.
“No worries dude… I can take her.” Ken shrugged while replying.
“You don’t look either..” Will said holding his shoulder. That was so not true. Ken looked fine. Will turned towards me and walked closer..
“I need to go with them…I’ll drop Kelly off..” He said softly looking at my wide eyes.
“There is no need for that.. I see Ken can do that.. Why do you have to go ? I don’t think there is any reason.” I said looking at him with angry eyes.
“Kel, I need to.” He said coming closer. I looked at him, getting angry. I didn’t know why. Maybe his attention shifted from mine? Maybe I was no longer the important one? Maybe If I didn’t know that Will and Nikki were together once upon a time, I would much better than this ? Oh fuck it. I looked at him hard.
I didn’t say anything and walked away.
“Kel!” He shouted behind me.
I didn’t turn, let him do the fuck he wants.
“Kel!!” He shouted again.
I walked briskly towards my car and opened the door and drove home. I thought about it while driving, was I being unreasonable ? Was I selfish ? Never I wanted anyone to do something for me? But Will did. I didn’t want it. But he insisted. I distanced myself since start but his determination to make be happy and safe was beyond my control. I soon started becoming used to it which was a problem. Specially at such times. He was my friend. Maybe I had to calm down and not think much.
I soon entered home, took a warm shower and slowly slide on my side of the bed. “Ahhhh…God…” Moaned in comfort, placing my hands on the soft mattress. This bed was so good. I really loved the soft mattress and warm quilt. I turned my back and closed my eyes.. I sighed. It has been a long day.
After a few hours, I heard my bedroom door open and enter the bathroom. Hmm…Will..I figured. I didn’t open my eyes, I continued to find my deep sleep. Soon after, I felt a depth on my left side of the bed. Will scooted closer to my back. He breathed hard. I had worn a satin short night dress, It was soft and I loved the feel on my skin. I felt his arm around my torso, softly then getting tighter.
“Hmmm” I mumbled allowing him in, going a bit back.
“I am sorry..” He whispered on my nape. “You’re right.. I didn’t have to go. It was just that.. I was worried.” He said sighing.
“Worried for her?” I said softly while closing my eyes.
“Yeah..” he answered. ” But I was wrong, Ken could have left her..”
“It is fine.. I was unreasonable.. You were just protecting your friend. I think she wants you back..I saw the way she looked at you today” I mumbled in sleep
He chuckled, “she is like that. I would never get back with her..”
“Why not…” I placed my hands under my head, cozily.
“Because she cheated on me..” He whispered. I remained silent. Figured.
“You awake…” he mumbled on my exposed skin, almost touching them with his lips.
“Hmmmm…. Just a little. Did you shower…?” I asked him softly in low voice.
“Yes.. Ma’am…” He chuckled.
“Let’s sleep..” I sighed. He nodded and grabbed me tighter, I felt him on my back and his face on my nape. I pushed myself back so that he could grab me comfortably. He spooned me, “That’s really soft…”He said while feeling my dress and torso.
“Hmm..” I mumbled while drifting to sleep. We soon were in close embrace while we slept. I didn’t get any nightmares while I slept with Will like this. It made me feel protected and safe.
He knew that.