The weird noise of the fan on the pale grey ceiling. The weird smell. The weird feeling coming from the hosiptal I’m sitting in. Yes. I am in a room of a hospital writing on this blog now. So, my mom is currently gonna get operated in a few hours. And I haven’t seen my dad so tensed in his entire life. The coolest dad of the century was scared. Scared for his little brat wife. Yup. She is. But she is a lovely brat. My dad loves her with all the flaws, so does my mom. I think now it is not about love, its about seeing each other every morning and giving each other energy for the rest of the day. They have become eachother’s habit. They can’t live out each other anymore. It’s a need. So in a semi dark room with my mom on my side asleep on her bed. The room had one bed, a table with a jar of water, few magazines and another bed for me to sleep on. Surprisingly my mom wasn’t as scared at all. She was all cool. She told me before that “whatever is gonna happen it will happen for good. And i will be happy.” I was surprised at her positivity. I was kinda proud of my mom because she was all fearless and brave.
Were as me. I was scared but i never did let her know. I was all cool and confident front her and dad. But really? I was scared for my mom. She is just a need for me. I don’t think my dad or me could ever live without her. This thought scared me. We should be able to live without her. We were so depended on her emotionally that it scared me.
I guess. It is just a another fact to be believed on. And as people say..you will know when it comes. As i got ready to stay the night with ma. I took all the stuff with her. Her garments, her water bottle, her reports, her usual stuff. We prayed before leaving to the hospital, dad dropped us and had a talk with the surgeon..had done some formalities. Dad gave a kiss to mom. I think mom knew it. Ofcourse she knows dad more than anyone. She could sense the worry and fear coming from dad’s hug and kiss.
“I’ll be fine…don’t worry..i’ll see you in the morning..okay?” mom said with a sweet smile.
“Yeah…” dad replied with a fake smile.
And I was standing afar looking at them. Dad gave a nod of approval to take care of mom for the night. And i just walked towards him and hugged him and gave him a kiss.
“Good night dad. I’ll take care of her. You go sleep. I’ll see you in the morning” i said with a smile.
And as i said that i took mom with me , turning back waving bye to dad. Dad had left. We emerged in the room. Mom took the bed. And was talking to me when she fell asleep.
I sat there for a while. Spoke to my best friend. Shared my feelings with her. Saw some posts. My bestie had suggested me to write if I’m awake..
I just couldn’t sleep. So here i am ..my favorite thing to do. Write.
So I am kinda scared. But i gotta support mom. I can’t be weak front of her. So yeah…
Good night guys.